This one is gonna hurt

Now I know how the moth feels - drawn to the flame.  Knowing it is dangerous - knowing it could hurt like hell and yet unable to move away.  Looking for the briefest moment of warmth and contentment even if it means risking it all.

Every thought in my head screams to back away - every piece of logic says this cant work out.  Experience has shown that probability of this ending in my favor are next to none and yet - like that damn moth I find myself wanting to get closer ... I'd walk into your fire willingly for even the briefest moment of your warmth and love.

My heart is a war with my head.  We are in such different places in our lives.  I've been where you are- I know you need time.  I need to keep my head clear and my heart out of this - and then you tell me you miss me.  And in that moment the battle is lost and the heart takes over.  What if I am wrong? What if this is the one? What if you are ready for someone like me?  What if you don't need time? What if you need me? What if I don't wait to see how it plays out and I miss out on the greatest love of all?

UUgggg! It is so hard to have blind faith.  It is so hard to dance this close to the flame knowing at any moment I could be scorched.

I have past the point of no return with you.  So for now I will wait - on the edge of the light and darkness... willing to risk it all at anytime.....

Oh - this one is gonna hurt - A LOT.