Perspective

per-spec-tive: the interrelation in which a subject or its parts are mentally viewed

There are times in life when we see something and it is so bright we are blinded by its beauty.  There are things we think we want and when it is so close to touch we fail to see past the sparkle.  We only see the parts we want to.

I have finally seen past the flash and sparkle ... I can see more clearly now ... I finally have a more real perspective. The emotional war between logic and feeling rages on and I must find a way to navigate the mine field but perhaps my new found understanding will help.

To Want or Not to Want

To Want or Not to Want... that is THE question!

I have always had a knack for figuring people out.  I can usually tell when they like me, when they don't - I can read their intentions and know if they are looking for something real or something right now... I usually know right where I stand.  But with you it different.  I have no clue.  And that frustrates the HELL out of me!

You are a risky temptation.  Do you have any idea the power you have?  Do you know what you are doing - or is all unintentional? 

I can not understand how in one moment all the pieces fit - without saying a word I can feel your attraction for me - I know you want to be with me  - I know you want me.... and in the next moment you seem so far out of reach - so distant - so far.


I want you!  I want more than I have wanted anything is such a long time.  I want you - but is it for the right reasons? This is the question I should be pondering - this is the question I am afraid to answer.

How do you stop wanting something?

Caught in the Storm

"I'm caught in the storm
I'm caught in the rain
I'm caught in the rush
that hides this pain"

If only you could see how much I need you... I wont admit it and I wont ask for you -- I only wish you could see how much I need your love and how much I could love you in return.