Can you hear me?

I called out your name today ... did you hear me?

I asked for your help, but there was no answer. So much is changing so very fast ... how do I know if I'm making the right choices, making the right decisions?

Have you noticed how much I seem to rock the boat in my own life? Why must I change everything at one time ... instead of just one thing at a time?

I wish you could tell me all I'm doing wrong and all I'm doing right. I wish a lot of things, but I know not all wishes can come true.

I know you fly with angels and I feel you with me everyday .... I wish I had told you how special you were, before you were gone.

Summer Fun!

I'm so very behind in many exciting posts ... so here's a recap of Summer 2010 ... so far:


Ian took his first Holy Communion in April! I'm so proud of him!



Anna had a huge dance recital in May ... she stole the show performing in 4 different dances, with 3 costume/hair changes. And she was beside herself with pride when she was awarded the 'Big Trophy!'


Ian joined boy scouts and earned his wolf patch!


We spent a fun filled day at Lagoon with our good friends, Heather, Melissa, Braxton, and Isabelle!






Whew! There is a lot more to share ... but I'm sleepy now and it takes forever for the pics to upload .... so we'll call this Summer Fun Part 1 .... with more to come!

Happy Birthday?!?

My baby girl turned 4 yesterday! Oh my goodness how fast time flies. Life was so very different 4 years ago when she made her way into this world. She has made every moment a wonderful gift ... even those moments she drives me to the brink of sanity! :)



After a very small family celebration (me & Ian ... and her dad for about an hour) The three of us went to see Grandma. Yesterday was her birthday too! I miss her so very much. I thought of her last birthday on Earth ... If I had known it was her last I would have done so much more ... she was sick, but I naively thought somehow she'd get better.



We weren't the only ones to remember her yesterday. Look how beautiful the flowers are. She would have loved them. I do not know who brought them ... I have a couple ideas ... but whomever it was ... "Thank You!". There are times I feel so all alone on my island ... it was comforting to know someone else is thinking of her .... and missing her.

We sang her "Happy Birthday!" and left our flowers with the others. As I started to the car I heard Anna say, "Good bye Grandma, I am sorry you are dead". Can you say tear to the eye?

Mom would have adored her! She is such a mini-me ... only cuter!


So another year has past ... The sun still comes up every day ... and it still sets every night. And me and the kids still make it thru ... one day at a time.

Happy Birthday to my sweet little angel from Heaven and Happy Birthday to my beautiful mother, an angel in Heaven.

(God knew what he was doing when he gave me Anna on Mom's birthday)