I wish I could love you and make you believe...

I want...

if only life had an undo button... but sadly we can not unsay a word, we can not undo an action.  

We can only hope for redemption. 

I have made mistakes... and I will make more... and while I know I can not undo the moments that were bad I have realized more than ever the power of communication.  I am learning to ask for help.  I am learning to voice my fears.  I am learning to be a better person.

I have learned (and learned the hard way) that life and love are fleeting... here one day... gone the next.  One thing I will never do is settle... I have seen the look of regret on too many faces of those I love... and I do not want that for me.  I want to ache for the one I love even though we've only been apart for a day... I want passion and devotion...  I want rest on his shoulder when I am weary and hold him in my arms when he is weak...  I want to stand beside him with pride to celebrate our triumphs...  I want to love him unconditionally and know he loves me the same. 

I know he is out there...
I know he is waiting.....
I know we'll be together soon!

Reaction

For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. or so they say...

And for every choice we make there is a consequence.  Sometime the consequence is good - a reward and sometimes the consequence is not so good and we are left wondering why we made the choice we did.

If we knew how things would turn out would we change the choice?  I cannot say I would or would not but I do know I am glad I do not know the end before the beginning.  Every choice leads us down a path and we have the chance to learn what we do well and what we don't do so well.  If we are smart we can take the experience from the choice and become a better person.  For some this comes quickly .. and for some it takes longer to reflect... to find their strength and acknowledge their weakness.

I have not always made the 'right' choice.  I have been slow to react.   But I have spent a lot of time reflecting on where I have been - who I have met - and where I need to be.  I confess there are things I should have done different but I can assure you I have learned more about who I am and more importantly I have learned more about who I want to be.

Wanted