I want...

if only life had an undo button... but sadly we can not unsay a word, we can not undo an action.  

We can only hope for redemption. 

I have made mistakes... and I will make more... and while I know I can not undo the moments that were bad I have realized more than ever the power of communication.  I am learning to ask for help.  I am learning to voice my fears.  I am learning to be a better person.

I have learned (and learned the hard way) that life and love are fleeting... here one day... gone the next.  One thing I will never do is settle... I have seen the look of regret on too many faces of those I love... and I do not want that for me.  I want to ache for the one I love even though we've only been apart for a day... I want passion and devotion...  I want rest on his shoulder when I am weary and hold him in my arms when he is weak...  I want to stand beside him with pride to celebrate our triumphs...  I want to love him unconditionally and know he loves me the same. 

I know he is out there...
I know he is waiting.....
I know we'll be together soon!