I am ready

I am ready for you now!  I wasnt then, but I am now! 

Where are you?  Where did you go? Damn!  Why did I let you go?

I know you could not wait for me forever... and if you knew this day would come I think you'd still be here.  You taught me a lot and my time with you has made me a better woman.

I think of you often... I wonder where you are... how you are... are you happy? 

It is said, timing is everything... I've missed 'our' time... I will always wonder what if and I wish love and happiness for you always!

Thru my eyes

I wish you could see you through my eyes.  You are so beautiful, so amazing. 

I have known you practically my whole life... we came from the same background... we fight the same demons... I know your heart and how it aches to be loved and cherished.  I understand your search for the one person who will hold you during the storm and tell you it's going to be OK.  The one person who always puts your first, stands by your side -no matter what.  I understand your longing for real love. 

I feel your tiredness... I know you wonder how you can possibly get through one more day... but I dont understand your actions... I don't know what to do, or what to say.  And I am heartbroken that I do not know how to save you. 

If only you could see you through my eyes - you'd see that you are not alone.  You'd see how far we've come to change our lives... you'd know what an incredible parent you are.  If only you could see what we all see... then maybe you could fight a little harder instead of giving up. :(

Take me as I am

Slow to trust

But I'm quick to love

I push to hard

And I give to much

I ain't sayin' I'm perfect

But I promise I'm worth it