Odijo: November 2011

19 November 2011

Thankful?

Thanksgiving is only 5 days away. I've usually made my menu list, my shopping list, and I should be done purchasing all the necessary items for a spectacular holiday meal. But I haven't done more than think about how big (or small) of a turkey I need for this year. Seems like with time my holiday is getting smaller... rather than larger.

Lately, more than ever you have filled my thoughts and weighed down my heart. I cant help but think that we should be talking on the phone... finalizing what you will bring. I still want you to walk through my door early on Thanksgiving Day ready to mash the potatoes and help me put the food on the table. This will be the 4th holiday season since you left. I miss you SO much Mom.

Ian talks about you. He remembers your hugs and how you always had a cookie for him when we came to visit. Anna has a solo this year at the Festival of Trees. I know you'd be there, front row, clapping the loudest.

I think a lot about you and the life you had. I realize now how hard it must've been... a single mother ... alone with her two children. I have so many questions...that only you can answer. I sure could use a word or two of wisdom from you... something for a little strength.

I hope you have the peace you deserve. I feel you with me and I know you have kept me out of more than one mess. I love you and always will... Happy Thanksgiving Mom.

Choices

Life is a series of choices. Each day we make several... what clothes to wear, what food to prepare for each meal, what road to take to work... some days present more choices than others... do we choose to accept the invitation for a drink after work? do we choose the invitation for a date or do we choose a night alone at home?

There are even bigger choices to be made; do we accept the proposal of marriage? do we marry for comfort or for passion? do we marry for companionship or for love? do we choose to stay in a marriage with years of history or do we choose to leave?

Sometimes a choice does not result in the outcome we plan or desire. So how do you know which choice is the right one?

The most import lesson learned is to make your choice based on what is best for you. At the end of the day, as you stand alone... is the choice you made the best for you and only you in that moment. One should never make a choice based on the hope of action from another. We can hope for a choice to lead us to companionship, passion, love... but if it does not we need to know before we make our choice that we are ok with that.

Make your choices wisely. Know what is most important to you, know what is most dear in your heart and follow that.