if only

if only for once things could turn out the way i imagine them to.

the past week i have finally began to take much needed action.  the road ahead promises to be full of challenge - full of obsticles - full of adversity ... but i think i am finally ready.

it's time to face what must be ... if only it could go the way i've played it out in my mind.

if only ....

if only i could have you.  if only you were by my side - helping me stand tall ... helping to keep me grounded.

if only....

my hopes are simple - my dreams achievable

i only want to love - to build my world around a tender soul - to make him smile - make him laugh - hold him when he is down - stand beside him when he is strong.... if only ... if only he was here to love me - to want me - to hold me and never let go...

if only for once things could turn out the way i imagine them to.