memories

i thought of you today.

i think of you often.

i still see your smile and it takes away my fear.

what i wouldn't give for one more day .... for one more hour .... even for one more minute.

isn't it sad how we take 'now' for granted. there is always tomorrow to say what we need to say. there is always another day to ask questions, to learn, to share ... and then one day there isn't.

i use to think i was so independant. i use to think i was such a strong woman. i use to think i could conquer the world. and then you were gone. and then i learned how much you held me up.

how did you do it? how did you give me strength? how did you make me into the woman i am without me ever knowing it was you?

i think of your struggles and i think of your challenges and mostly i think of your sacrifices. you never complained even when you had every reason to.

oh how i wish i could hear you tell me all that i'm doing wrong and all that i'm doing right. i wish i could ask the hundreds of questions that fill my mind. i wish i had known then that you wouldn't always be here.

i didn't know how lost i could feel... until you were gone.

so today ... as the country celebrates the men and women who fight for our country. on this day, Memorial Day ... i honor you Mom. For all that you gave, for all that you are, for being my mother.

I love you