As we grow older why must we lose our fearlessness?

With age we gain experience and with experience we gain wisdom and with wisdom comes enlightenment and with enlightenment comes freedom …. Right? And yet it seems the more ‘experience’ we have the more cautious we become. I wish I could make the leap without over-thinking the situation. I wish I could trust with my whole heart without bracing myself for disappointment. I wish I could let go of a disagreement with the abandonment it deserves. Instead, because of past ‘experience’ I find myself guarding my heart, my soul, my being. I miss the carefree days of blissful ignorant youth. The days we’d charge into battle without consideration of the outcome. Taking on a new job simply because it sounds fun. Jumping feet first into love without reservation. Wanting to conquer the world!

I suppose knowledge and ‘experience’ do have their advantages. Especially when raising two young children and wanting to teach them the beauty and amazement of life. But if we could all let go of our insecurities and trust in our hearts and emotions and where they want to lead us I think we’d all reap the most wonderful ‘experience’ of all … LOVE – unconditional, unwavering, indestructible LOVE!

I cannot say I’d change things … or change anything about me. Looking back on youth we often say “if I’d only known then what I know now” … but would you really change a decision or make a different choice?? We could not … then what we know today would be different.

Every ‘experience’, every decision has brought me to this moment … and while I find my path to be unfamiliar and undefined I do choose to believe I am exactly where I am suppose to be … at this exact moment. And all will happen as it is suppose to … even if I don’t know exactly what ‘all’ is.