Worst Enemy

I am my own worst enemy. Why do I sabotage my own happiness? Why am I so afraid to trust my heart? Why do I run? It's not easier you know, to run. It make things harder ... messier.

When I was young I would jump without hesitation, without thought, without fear. What the HELL happened? Why is it so hard for me? What am I so afraid of? A broken heart? Is that the worse thing that can happen? Is that so bad? After all, it will mend it time. Isn't love worth the risk?

God in heaven why am I so protective of my heart, my thoughts, my feelings? I can only hope I'll learn before it's too late.