Hello .... I am back

Hello! It’s been awhile since I’ve shared… The kids and I continue to find our way in this world. They continue to amaze me and inspire me! Anna had her first dance recital in December and she stole the show. So now we are preparing for a Spring recital in which she and Shae are doing the most amazing duet to “Me and My Shadow”. I can’t wait!

Ian had his first penance and in April will have his first communion. He is such a special soul and takes good care of his mother and sister.

I am still single but optimistic. I know that when the stars align and the Earth’s rotation upon its axis is at the optimal position then the angles will smile upon the earth and light from the heavens will shower down … it will be on this day that I find true love again. I know he is out there … waiting for me as I search for him.

Dating at my age is hard though. How do you do it? Where do you meet people? I stole this from a friend … He was describing internet dating … but I think it sums up middle age dating in general …

Dating is like fishing … you just never know what you are going to hook. One day you will get a nibble, and when you try to hook them they get away. And then you won't get anything the rest of the day. Another day you will get sooo many hits you can't get to them all. Then when you do hook one, you have to decide if it's a keeper or not. Should you let it go so that it will grow a little so you can catch it later when it's bigger? Then you get the sucker fish, which you have a hard time getting off your line. Then what usually happens is as soon as you let the sucker fish go, it gets right back on your line again. So then you ponder for a moment and ask yourself “Am I really hungry enough to eat a sucker fish?” Sometimes you are, sometimes your not.I wish there was a prognosticator who could tell me when the good fish are going to be biting. I have tried, but I just can't figure it out. Is it the moon, change in the weather, alcohol, I just don't know, but I keep trying. Like the bumper sticker says "A bad day of fishing beats a good day at work"

That makes me giggle every time I read it.

I think the more time we are let down by love the more we are afraid to let it back into our lives. As much as I appreciate my outlook on life and value the lessons I’ve had up til now I also curse the knowledge of what life really is. I miss the carefree naive view of youth at times. There are days I wish I could make the leap of faith, without thinking it through, without thinking of the end before the beginning has had a chance to happen. But alas, I have been around the block a time or two and know that there are many speed bumps to get over to get from here to there. But I’m willing to take the drive to see where the road leads … wish me luck!