Time Travel DOES exist

time travel exists ... I was transported back in time yesterday.

I had to make a trip to St. Mark's Hospital. I haven't been there since Mom was there. I was completely blindsided by the emotion. I had not thought of how it may affect me. From the moment I pulled my car into the parking garage I was overcome with sadness. It felt like I was transported back to last year ... when I spent too much time there.

As I entered the hospital the smells assaulted my senses and I could no longer control the tears. It became hard to catch my breath and my stomach tightened. I could hear the Dr.'s updating me on Mom's condition and as I sat in the waiting room I swear I could hear Mom's voice mixed in with all the other chatter.

I wonder what people thought as I sat there with tears rolling down my cheek ... I am sure they had no idea it was from events over a year old. My thoughts drifted from what had happened, to what I wish I had done differently, to what she must think of me now.

I miss you Mom ... and I know I always will. My thoughts and memories are slowly migrating from the tragic events of last year to the simple, happy times we shared. Everyday I grieve but everyday I become a little stronger, I spend extra time with my kids to give them wonderful memories to hold on to, and everyday I thank God for the most wonderful gifts I have been given.

time travel exists ... whether brought on by a familiar place, a favorite song, or a scent in the air ... let yourself be transported to the place and time filed somewhere in your memory ... it is life's experiences that define who we are, and who we will continue to grow to be. Be it a sad or happy memory it is part of the miracle of life.